I was told that being a christougenniátiko would herald a new era of bliss; one that was pain free and fully illuminated. I thought there would be no place of uncertainty; how wrong I was.
It has not been anything like what I have been told. Because like everyone else, I was seeking an escape from the pain I was going through. A pain that felt as dark as the darkest night and as deep as the bottomless pit. The only light I saw was this newly professed lover who had all it took to send the pain far from me.
I jumped at the offer to follow him with both hands and feet as a cat trying to escape the icy water of a cold winter morning. This new lover was to usher and keep me in a wonderland, somewhere called Canaan. Only to wake up to the same ridicule from my peers, months had rolled by and still no sign of any improvement in my life (so I felt at the time).
What I was never told was that being a Christougenniátiko did not excuse me from a life of hardship and trials rather it gave the strength needed to face and overcome them.
I really wished someone told me about this earlier, I wouldn’t have spoken against Ehyeh in my mind the way I did because I was upset and thought he deceived me into his service. I must admit, I usually felt a certain kind of peace within me but that didn’t stop the part of me that made me human to kick in with all the complaints and murmuring whenever things didn’t go how I wanted it. (You think that’s selfish of me right? I think so too now).
The life of a believer is one that would be faced with challenges like everyone else till we all depart from this our corporal form but then we also should know that we don’t have a God that would cheer us from afar and urge us to walk through; we rather have a God that will stay with us in the fire, walk us through the valley of death’s shadow and calm us down in the middle of the storm till it ceases and we touch down on the shore.
The Watcher 